I have been so proud of me. Even after going to stores, etc. I haven't been tempted to get a Dr. Pepper....which is huge for me because of how addicted I use to be to them.
Juicing is working like a charm. I am still hoping all the fruits don't cause weight gain because of the sugars in fruits (different kind of sugar). I am very happy to no longer have a hurting tummy. I am disappointed that the swelling is slow about going away, but a flare up this terrible takes time to heal...I know...still doesn't make me happy.
I had such a last week with my crohns and with my celiac that I did little else than walk/bike for a few minutes. At least it was something. Why does this seem to be the year of setbacks? I surely don't understand that....I'm trying so hard to reach my fitness goals but it seems to be getting further away due to these setbacks. :(
I'm hitting the gym again today. Here's hoping I can do it! I miss being able to workout like I like to. :(
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Monday, October 22, 2012
Thursday, October 18, 2012
because I ramble......still.
I heard for a few minutes from my big bother! yey me! I've been worried about him, so it's good to finally hear from him!
I am on day 19 of no Dr. Peppers (another yey me!). I'm surprised how easy it's been for me this time. I've only had a few moments of weakness wanting to have one......but other than that.....nada. Not even really bad headaches like I've had when I tried to quit before :)
I went to the gym yesterday & only got 40 minutes of bike/walking in. And I'm not talking fast walking I tried to stay above 80 on the bike....but after those things I was tapped out. Stupid crohns and celiac. I'm hoping that by next week I'm back 100%. This year has been the year of set backs, that's for sure :(.
I am on day 19 of no Dr. Peppers (another yey me!). I'm surprised how easy it's been for me this time. I've only had a few moments of weakness wanting to have one......but other than that.....nada. Not even really bad headaches like I've had when I tried to quit before :)
I went to the gym yesterday & only got 40 minutes of bike/walking in. And I'm not talking fast walking I tried to stay above 80 on the bike....but after those things I was tapped out. Stupid crohns and celiac. I'm hoping that by next week I'm back 100%. This year has been the year of set backs, that's for sure :(.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
so is my life no gluten no dr. peppers. almost no joy.
I tried to go to the gym yesterday afternoon only to have my guts to tell me "heck no"....and thus started my pain again. How do I end up here again......How do I get out of this place of pain? How do I get to where I'm actually eating again so that my system isn't frozen and metabolism isn't at rock bottom level? How can I eat and feel full again? When can food be fun again?
growing up, I knew that I had something wrong and thru the years I've had bouts of anorexia and bulimia (and no I won't talk about it, and no I won't tell you how to do it, so don't ask). And I've never LOVED food. I've only eaten to live.....to survive and that is no fun...at all.
a few years ago the word "celiac" came into my life & I thought that was all that was wrong. I ended up having a surgery & they removed a small part of my intestines & I thought I was "fixed". I fell off of the celiac gluten free diet & man I feel off good.
I knew that my insides were more than suffering and I still ignored all the signs, even when I was told by others what was wrong. UNTIL this recent bout and I know I'm no longer 'borderline' crohns too, I'm full fledged.
Since I already take meds for another problem, I'm trying to go holistic. I've already had some of my intestines removed, I'm trying to avoid any more. I don't want any more surgeries...way too many already.
I have decided to do a diet of mostly juicing (especially during this flare up) and add in protein in my shakes and I'm going to have 1 good meal to eat a day. That will give my 'guts' time to heal & not work so hard & allow my liver to quit over functioning.
I made a mistake the other day thinking I could eat sausage (since it was a meat) and it was the long smoked kind straight from a butcher, so I thought I was good. And *this is gross* it became obvious to me it wasn't working when I saw it coming in as it went out if you know what I mean. That's not good. Dummy girl. Another food added to foods I can't eat. great.
After yesterday (my first juicing day) I have come to realize that juicing will be expensive. I don't know how I can afford it.......but I'm praying that I find a way. If not, I will figure out another way to work it out.
today, I went to Publix to look for Kale & they didn't have any EITHER! What's up with that? Anyway, while I was there I saw organic gluten free tomato soup made my V-8 and it was in the clearance bin and I looked at the organic gluten free chips & saw they had a style of corn chips (and I took it down the regular chip isle and found the same chips in another bag and they were 2 dollars cheaper (why is eating right and easiest on your digestive track so fracking expensive?)
so I feel like I scored.
I came home & fixed a small amount of the tomato soup & it was amazing. I can not recommend it enough. It was seasoned just enough to have a little kick but not off the shelf condensed til processing comes pouring out of the can either. It tasted to me just like homemade straight from the tomatoes soup, I loved it. Go. Buy it you must. V-8. its amazing. It's down the organic (aka the boring isles) but it's worth the trip. seriously.
food is still not fun. I'm still struggling with making myself eat. I know that it's because of my celiac and crohns but I'm going to keep at it.
oh, just when you thought I wouldn't mention dr. peppers......I am 17 days into no dr. peppers. I've had a few times I wanted them, but mostly its fleeing and usually when I see a cold on in the cooler at the store. Thus, I've really been staying out of them as much as I can..and today, I went in and didn't even think to look at the cola coolers. I'm a good girl and I'm so proud of me. I'm feeling more confident that I've really stopped and this has helped my feeling I have no willpower or that they are what I so need. Looking back on it I know that it's because I had started looking at them as 'friends' since I really don't have them in real life and I looked forward to have a 'reason' to go somewhere since I felt so useless that was giving me a task to do.
I didn't realize how dehydrated I was until I gave them up & I started drinking 2 liters of water to replace my 1.5 liter dr. pepper. The trick I had read that would work has. I'm drowning my need for dr. pepper by just feeding myself all kinds of water.....I'm proud of that too. I've always wanting to feel like I didn't want one, I really wanted to kick that habit so I've done that. I'm calling myself quit on them. I'm a quitter. Yep. I finally am proud of being a quitter. Yey me.
food may never be fun for me (again) but that's okay. I will take days without a swollen gut over that any day. I'm so tired of pain.
growing up, I knew that I had something wrong and thru the years I've had bouts of anorexia and bulimia (and no I won't talk about it, and no I won't tell you how to do it, so don't ask). And I've never LOVED food. I've only eaten to live.....to survive and that is no fun...at all.
a few years ago the word "celiac" came into my life & I thought that was all that was wrong. I ended up having a surgery & they removed a small part of my intestines & I thought I was "fixed". I fell off of the celiac gluten free diet & man I feel off good.
I knew that my insides were more than suffering and I still ignored all the signs, even when I was told by others what was wrong. UNTIL this recent bout and I know I'm no longer 'borderline' crohns too, I'm full fledged.
Since I already take meds for another problem, I'm trying to go holistic. I've already had some of my intestines removed, I'm trying to avoid any more. I don't want any more surgeries...way too many already.
I have decided to do a diet of mostly juicing (especially during this flare up) and add in protein in my shakes and I'm going to have 1 good meal to eat a day. That will give my 'guts' time to heal & not work so hard & allow my liver to quit over functioning.
I made a mistake the other day thinking I could eat sausage (since it was a meat) and it was the long smoked kind straight from a butcher, so I thought I was good. And *this is gross* it became obvious to me it wasn't working when I saw it coming in as it went out if you know what I mean. That's not good. Dummy girl. Another food added to foods I can't eat. great.
After yesterday (my first juicing day) I have come to realize that juicing will be expensive. I don't know how I can afford it.......but I'm praying that I find a way. If not, I will figure out another way to work it out.
today, I went to Publix to look for Kale & they didn't have any EITHER! What's up with that? Anyway, while I was there I saw organic gluten free tomato soup made my V-8 and it was in the clearance bin and I looked at the organic gluten free chips & saw they had a style of corn chips (and I took it down the regular chip isle and found the same chips in another bag and they were 2 dollars cheaper (why is eating right and easiest on your digestive track so fracking expensive?)
so I feel like I scored.
I came home & fixed a small amount of the tomato soup & it was amazing. I can not recommend it enough. It was seasoned just enough to have a little kick but not off the shelf condensed til processing comes pouring out of the can either. It tasted to me just like homemade straight from the tomatoes soup, I loved it. Go. Buy it you must. V-8. its amazing. It's down the organic (aka the boring isles) but it's worth the trip. seriously.
food is still not fun. I'm still struggling with making myself eat. I know that it's because of my celiac and crohns but I'm going to keep at it.
oh, just when you thought I wouldn't mention dr. peppers......I am 17 days into no dr. peppers. I've had a few times I wanted them, but mostly its fleeing and usually when I see a cold on in the cooler at the store. Thus, I've really been staying out of them as much as I can..and today, I went in and didn't even think to look at the cola coolers. I'm a good girl and I'm so proud of me. I'm feeling more confident that I've really stopped and this has helped my feeling I have no willpower or that they are what I so need. Looking back on it I know that it's because I had started looking at them as 'friends' since I really don't have them in real life and I looked forward to have a 'reason' to go somewhere since I felt so useless that was giving me a task to do.
I didn't realize how dehydrated I was until I gave them up & I started drinking 2 liters of water to replace my 1.5 liter dr. pepper. The trick I had read that would work has. I'm drowning my need for dr. pepper by just feeding myself all kinds of water.....I'm proud of that too. I've always wanting to feel like I didn't want one, I really wanted to kick that habit so I've done that. I'm calling myself quit on them. I'm a quitter. Yep. I finally am proud of being a quitter. Yey me.
food may never be fun for me (again) but that's okay. I will take days without a swollen gut over that any day. I'm so tired of pain.
Monday, October 8, 2012
day 8 (really day 9)
UPDATED: FULL FLEDGED CROHNS....I have had a terrible weekend health wise this weekend.
It all started a few days ago with tummy swelling (especially on the right side) and then was followed by a rash around my ears and neck and face.......and I still didn't take the hint. I had not visited the bathroom for a 'serious' visit in over a week and I still didn't get it.
it all led to trying everything I could think of to help. Nothing worked until my guy got me to drink Epsom salt. And even then it's been a slow go.
I've had celiac borderline crohns well since about birth. I've had days and terrible nights that I won't go into here...I have been a bad girl forgetting my gluten free existence and the fact I don't need luncheon meat for more days than I care to count......all because of Subway BMT......
at first I thought it was my giving up dr. peppers cold turkey, but I knew I couldn't even have one or I'd be back on them full fleged......but no. It was my friend celiac and this time he brought his hateful older brother crohns. Yep. It just got real.
my intestines are still pretty swollen, especially on my right side, but it all should get better over the next few days.......I hate having to live a life of such a strict diet, but this is something I really have to do now if I want to be healthy.....so many changes......so many things I'm giving up now.......and again....but I have to keep telling myself it is going to be so worth it, when all that swelling goes down.......right now it's making me miserable!
I am looking to working out this week. I just hope my belly allows me to. :(
It all started a few days ago with tummy swelling (especially on the right side) and then was followed by a rash around my ears and neck and face.......and I still didn't take the hint. I had not visited the bathroom for a 'serious' visit in over a week and I still didn't get it.
it all led to trying everything I could think of to help. Nothing worked until my guy got me to drink Epsom salt. And even then it's been a slow go.
I've had celiac borderline crohns well since about birth. I've had days and terrible nights that I won't go into here...I have been a bad girl forgetting my gluten free existence and the fact I don't need luncheon meat for more days than I care to count......all because of Subway BMT......
at first I thought it was my giving up dr. peppers cold turkey, but I knew I couldn't even have one or I'd be back on them full fleged......but no. It was my friend celiac and this time he brought his hateful older brother crohns. Yep. It just got real.
my intestines are still pretty swollen, especially on my right side, but it all should get better over the next few days.......I hate having to live a life of such a strict diet, but this is something I really have to do now if I want to be healthy.....so many changes......so many things I'm giving up now.......and again....but I have to keep telling myself it is going to be so worth it, when all that swelling goes down.......right now it's making me miserable!
I am looking to working out this week. I just hope my belly allows me to. :(
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